Absolutely Beautiful

Posting again within a span of twelve hours - it's despicable. Oh well. This is a rather scattered post, going in so many directions at once without fully articulating what I'm feeling. But the feeling is there, whether or not any possible readers understand it, and perhaps a great all-seeing eyeball is around, too.


I find that these song lyrics from "Ajab Si" by Vishal are absolutely beautiful, included in the hilarious and delightful - hilightful - Bollywood film, "Om Shanti Om":

Ankhon mein teri ajab si ajab si adaayen hain
There’s something special in your eyes

Dil ko banade jo patang saansein yeh teri woh hawaein hain
Your breath is the wind that makes my heart soar like a kite

Tere saath saath aisa koi noor aaya hai
The light emanating from you

Chand teri roshni ka halka sa ek saaya hai
Makes even the moonlight but a pale shadow compared to you

Teri nazron ne dil ka kiya jo hashar, asar yeh hua
Your eyes created such a tumult in my heart that…

Ab inme hi doob ke ho jaoon paar, yahi hai dua
All I wish for now is to drown in them


That's what I want: for my life to be beautiful. I can only give a few words and images that can only signify the changes that one thing can inspire in my life. I cannot describe what it was like to hear Telemann's "Don Quixote - Les soupirs amoureux apres la princesse Dulcinee" or Vivaldi's first "Concerto for Two Cellos in G Minor: Allegro" for the first time, or to see Mino's "Yoro Waterfall." I have started to collect quotes that stand out to me, and I write them on a sheet of paper posted on my dorm room wall. They, too, add to the patchwork beauty of my life.

"Within Joshu's cup of tea, the mermaids are dancing." - D.T. Suzuki

"Really, all we're doing here is telling legitimate lies." -Professor Liu

Photo credit: Clive Barker
I want a geshrat to be my friend.

I've been spending too much time perusing icanhascheezburger.com, but I've stopped caring. The kittens can has my soul. It's probably a subconscious, masochistic, therapeutic response to the loss of my own dear kitteh Meike over the last semester. She may be gone from our home for the duration, but never from our hearts. And if God has a back porch, I hope she's taking a nap on it right now with Jessi's kitty, without any magpies to bother her, passing her time amiably until I can hold her in my arms again.


"Dance with me into the ocean
Roll with me into the sea
Don’t tell me the world is in trouble
Do you want to dance with me?"
-"Dance With Me" Old 97s

"Love is a dress that you made
long to hide your knees
love to say this to your face,
"I'll love you only"
for your days and excitement,
what will you keep for to wear?
someday drawing you different,
may I be weaved in your hair?"
"Love and Some Verses" - Iron and Wine

"Someday we'll find it - the rainbow connection" - Kermit the Frog